What Is Your Biggest Fear?

What is your biggest fear?

Every person has one, no matter their social status. Some will say a certain animal or heights or maybe the dark. Others will insist they don’t have one, unable to admit it even to themselves. Me, I have many fears, but only one that rattles my soul when I think about it. I am terrified of failing as a mother.

I have three children, therefore I have three little humans counting on me to do my job correctly. Failing as a mother could lead to  countless negative consequences all throughout their lives. Every choice I make, in every single moment, has an impact on their future and future generations. How do I know when enough is enough?

I homeschool my children. I have been exploring homeopathic medicines. I strive to prepare well rounded meals. I try to live a healthy and natural lifestyle. Despite all these efforts, at the end of the day I replay the events in my mind. I should have done this, I could have done that. My overactive imagination critiques every decision made.
I should have spent more time explaining something. I should have taken the time to read another story. I should have put more limits on screen time. The never ending list puts on a show before me highlighting my shortcomings.

I fight these thoughts of inadequacy knowing that I am harder on myself than I should be. I know that each and everyday I pour my heart into my children, striving to be and do the best I can. Some days I fall short and others I miss the mark by a mile. But most importantly every day I am there, showing up and being a parent. I don’t know what the future will bring but I know one thing for certain. My kids will always be my greatest accomplishments.

To all the parents who show up each and everyday without fail, you are doing a great job. Raising children is rough and by far the most challenging and complex job in the world. Don’t take it lightly, our actions today shape habits for tomorrow.