Waves

Waves of emotions come crashing in.
I don’t know where my feelings end and others begin.

I just want to run and hide
but I can’t escape what resides inside.

Everyday a fight just to win.
a constant struggle deep within.

I feel the need to say this is not true.
It’s all in my head no need to construe.

I am no different than the next.
I just want attention and that’s the effect.

But no matter how hard I try.
This part of me I can not hide.

Most don’t understand and that’s okay.
They are not forced to feel this day after day.

I can’t expect them to understand.
When they haven’t experienced it first hand.

Happy days are sad and draining. Sad days are bad, and constraining.

Some people say it just depression,
they never stop to question.

Maybe I feel more than most
I can’t help but become engrossed.

It’s a blessing, it’s a burden.
I feel the whole world hurting

But there’s no way to assist.
So I drown in emotions that fill the abyss.
Searching for a way to coexist.